27 April 2015


I've always been able to recall my dreams. Over my lifetime they've varied from the mundane to the whimsical. In the time since my mother moved to heaven, some have been bittersweet. I wake up from dreams of her and realize she's no longer here.

When I was young I went through a period where nightmares often visited. I can only recall those happening whenever my dad was stationed away from us. I think anyone who grew up in a military family would understand why that was so.

While truly scary dreams are rare, I've noticed an increase in disturbing, painful & anxious dreams of late. These seem to happen when pain levels are elevated. Do any of you have this happen? I'd welcome any suggestions you might have to see these go away.

My answer so far has been to pray. For those in the dream, for the pain which thankfully causes me to waken, and for all the suffering I see in the world around me. I'm always grateful for anytime I spend in prayer. But I'm wishing more of it were in the daytime rather than the night.

Praying the night away,


19 April 2015

Blessing of family

Things didn't go as planned this weekend but there are still many reasons to give thanks. I was able to spend a little time with loved ones, was blessed to be able to worship our awesome God together, and can now take a nap that will hopefully make this migraine a thing of history!

03 April 2015

The Boy Mark

That night, lamp bright, in the upper room
 I served him with meat and wine,
When he told the Twelve of his coming doom
 Their grief was mine.

Unsleeping, weeping, I lay and listened
 As they talked and the hours moved on;
Till the moon rose and the white roofs glistened
 And the last man had gone.

Then catching, snatching a sheet about me,
 Which doorways, walls concealed,
I tracked their swift shadows until they brought me
 Here to the oil-press field.

Hidden, unbidden, among silvered trees
 I tensed as he strode my way:
But a bough's length distant he dropped on his knees
 And parted his lips to pray.

These words I heard on the moonlit hill:
 'Father, hear thy son!
Remove this cup, and yet thy will
 Not mine be done!'

Now, on his brow, great pearls of sweat
 Glisten like drops of dew.
Silently, under Olivet,
 My tears are falling too.

Three times he climbs from his lonely prayers
 To Peter, James and John,
Sighs, and returns, and leaves as theirs
 The ground they sleep upon.

Then a sound rebounds on the cool night air -
 A cry from the Kedron bridge,
Torches, like hearthless fires, flare,
 Winding towards the ridge.

I see, through my tree, where the leaves hang dumb
 And moveless as the dead,
The dark, torch-blooded soldiers come,
 With Judas at their head.

Proud, uncowed, he keeps his tryst
 In the flarelight and the moon.
I know, too late, that he is the Christ
Too late, or else too soon.

No friend, at the end, to give him hope!
 Then clutching my tangled sheet,
I fling myself wildly down the slope
 And land at his friendless feet. . .

Yes, he smiled at the child, at the boy's whim,
 A smile in which love prevailed,
But I saw the men who surrounded him,
 And my courage failed

At the jeering, sneering, flickering sight,
 And here where this cypress is,
I left my robe in their hands that night,
 And my soul in his.

    ~  Author unknown

Wanted to share this much loved poem with you!

~ jené