21 September 2009

Truth Survey

My friend Lee has once again brought me into a facebook experiment. This one involves a survey requiring truthful answers. So here we go!

1.What was the last thing you ate?
Salad and Pizza

2.Where was your profile picture taken?
Scotland

3.Can you play Guitar Hero?
Never tried, have had to give up my real guitar. My niece Laura has it now and is much better with it than I ever was.

4.Name someone who made you laugh today?
Stacy

5.How late did you stay up last night and why?
It's not staying up if you can't sleep, so 5:00 am and I am not saying because it sounds like complaining!

6.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
If you mean the English countryside, you bet

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
yes

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
The sweetest little girls in town!

9. Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Certainly

10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper?
Diet Dr. Pepper when I do have it.

11. When was the last time you cried really hard?
Last Friday

12. Who took your profile picture?
My friend Vickie

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Everyone at The Container Store fiesta last night.

14. Was yesterday better than today?
no

15. Can you live a day without TV?
Often

16. Are you upset about anything?
Frustrated but not upset.

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Totally! Is there anything else?

18. Are you a bad influence?
well.......not necessarily bad.

19. Night out or night in?
depends on who I am spending the night with.

20. What items could you not go without during the day?
Music and meds

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
My neighbor Paul.

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
"Good." from my mom

23. How do you feel about your life right now?
Blessed in so many different ways

24. Do you hate anyone?
No, pointless and not worth my time.

25. If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find?
family, friends and a monk who has become a great pen pal!

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
Yes. Although after the last week, a little narcotic help would be welcome! ;-)

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
No, my friends are honest and my family can keep silent.

28. What song is stuck in your head?
"Heart and Soul". You spend an evening with three young girls learning to play the piano and see what gets stuck in your head.

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?
Publisher's Clearing House Prize Patrol

30.Wanna have grandkids before you’re 5O?
Hmmm. 48 now with no children, don't see it happening unless someone fixes me up with their Grandpa.

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Getting up and making it into work sounds good.

32. Do you think too much or too little?
Letting go of thinking to much, leaving that to my Heavenly Father. He's much better at it than I am.

33. Do you smile a lot?
yes, if it starts on my face it will make it to my soul.

So this will make it's way over to facebook where I will tag Lee back and you can feel free to participate or not.

Glad to have friends who include me,

jené

13 September 2009

Recurring thoughts

A couple of weeks ago we sang one of my favorite hymns during the service, "Lead On, O King Eternal." Now even weeks later the lyrics are still running through my mind.

For not with swords’ loud clashing,
Nor roll of stirring drums;

With deeds of love and mercy

The heavenly kingdom comes
.

This line from the second verse keeps finding it's way into my daily life. God continues to place in my path many opportunities to put it into practice. From helping a new mom find her feet, to guiding a friend with downsizing and offering assistance in a new business venture. I can feel I am doing my part in furthering my Lord's work for I believe every deed of love and mercy does so.

In totally different circumstances I may have found another use for these encouraging words. A brief foray into the political realm last week gives me cause to think the phrase might be useful as a mantra for the coming election season. Gubernatorial races are fierce in Texas. Frankly it has been so many years since my choice has been elected that I cannot find myself too worked up. When the talk turns mean spirited around me I think I will take a moment to remember the words Ernest W. Shurtleff wrote so many years ago. I will ignore the the loud clashing and focus on love and mercy.

Finding a home in love and mercy,

jené

P.S. In talking about this hymn with a friend, I learned that until he could read he sang this song as "Lead On O Kinky Turtle." I will be hard pressed not to laugh the next time it pops up in a service!

06 September 2009

Tough times

There have been many times in my life when things have been difficult to the point of overwhelming. If you were just looking at the facts of my life right now, you would think this another such period. Objectively, I can see all the things which would make this be the worst time of my life. But subjectively, it doesn't feel that way.

I have been this poor before. I have had times of increasing pain and limitations before. I have had periods where everything fell apart around me before. Yet this time, when all three are in place, I don't feel the despair I have felt in the past. This morning in a moment of enforced stillness I asked myself ; Why?

What is different now that I haven't had before. In looking back at the different times in my life when the "going got tough" I realized I often adhered to the motto that the "tough get going." That's just not possible now. Not having the ability to bail myself out of difficulty has forced me to rely upon God's grace completely.

There is nothing I have done to make this one of the best times of my life. Pain is still present. My movements are limited. I have to look for discounted items at the grocery store. I don't turn the key in the ignition except for necessary trips. And in the midst of all of the myriad of emotions each day brings there is no despair. For me, that is the best news ever. Now I find myself thanking my heavenly Father for the love and comfort He is gifting me. I am glad He is kind enough to listen when I yell at Him. I am grateful He helps me to redirect my focus to what I can do instead of what I can't do. I hope to someday be thankful for all the tough times, for now I am thankful for what they have brought to me.

Glad to have finally learned that grace makes a great comfort zone!

jené